Brought to You by Lexapro and the Number 8

Hi everyone!

My therapist challenged me to start this. I am emailing her a screenshot of this blog post to prove I actually did it. I am not entirely sure she will approve of the content, but that is on her for not giving me specific writing prompts. She could have said, "Be mature and write like a grown-up," but she just said, "Start a blog." So really, who is at fault here? Me? I think not.

Here are the CliffNotes on me:

• Age? Yes, I am over half a century old. Quit reminding me.
• Agoraphobia? Check!
• HRT? YEP, 13 years, just added progesterone! Started regulated HRT almost a month ago through FOLX.
• Social Anxiety? Of course.
• Loves Tacos? Who doesn't!
• Jeeps? I love Jeeps. Be highly careful about getting me started on mine.
• Antidepressants? Can't you tell? Just in case: YES!
• Self-Doubt? Did you see my current existence?

Tammy Dislikes:

• Pickles.
• Herself (some days).
• Having to pee constantly (Thanks, Spiro).
• Chicken (Wait! Don't go, we can still be friends!).

Since I am actively working on my social interactions from the comfort of my dingy apartment, I am using this blog to track my goals—no matter how chaotic they get. There will probably be other crazy ramblings, and yes, I will get overly excited about mechanical changes I make to my Jeep (Consider this your second warning).Here are the "Crazy Ambitions" I am currently aiming for:

• Short-Term Goal: Start Electrolysis and stop talking like Barry White.
• Jeep Goals: Lockers, new fenders, a light bar to see the end of the tunnel, and a re-gear to make driving 70 mph completely impossible.
• Long-Term Goal: Move to an accepting area where I can safely live as my true self.
• Today's Ambition: Successfully launching this blog without closing the tab in an absolute panic.

P.S. I almost named this entire blog "Brought to you by Lexapro and the number 8," but I am currently on my best behavior and would absolutely never put that in writing.

So, there it is. I have officially done my homework.

Useless Recap:

• Therapy assignment completed under malicious compliance.
• Thirteen solid years of HRT, but the progesterone is brand new.
• Barry White vocals are officially on notice.
• Tab remained open; panic successfully managed.

Disclaimer: Lexapro and the number 8 did not financially compensate me for this post, though my brain chemistry highly implies otherwise.